every broken heart is different~

assalamualaikum dan selamat hari jumaat..mulia hari ni tapi.....this is autopost..ditulis pada jam 0139, berlatar belakangkan lagu Breathe-Taylor Swift..kalau nak baca, teruskan, kalau tak, sila tinggalkan link anda di shoutbox..
i know how you feel...empty, betrayed and no happiness whatsoever...you don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse..you feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too...
you don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them...and everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them..that's the confusing part...you don't know why...you just do..and the people who hurt you the most is normally the ones you love the most..

and then after a few months, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial..and after a few more months, you're back to where you were..an empty soul and teary eyes..you thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it...and you can't help but to show it again...
it leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever..and no one understands how you feel..and how deep you are hurt...no matter who they are because it hasn't happened to them...even if it has, every broken heart is different...they don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this..
the feeling starts to overwhelm you and suddenly you just break down..right there..because you know you've had enough...the tears just instantly start flowing and you're to the point where you don't care who sees...because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed and so many days being hauted br the scars and fear of rejection..

in the midst of all these tears, you know that it's not helping any..and it's not going to bring them back..if you ever even had them in the first place..after about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going..your throats starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back..everyone says, "it will be okay..." but you know it won't..and that's the truth..it won't..
and you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible..you're still hurt but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay..so now every time you see this person, or heard about this person, you know you still love them and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you..screaming out..but for some reason they don't hear it..and then you sit back and wonder how this one person could have cause all of this...

happy birthday...to whom it may be concerned..to this blog particularly..may happiness be upon you always..
update 19 Oktober 2012: saya okay, saya sangat gembira, saya bersyukur alhamdulillah :) sebab update: banyak hits entri ni, ramai baca..kot la..page view tiba-tiba berlambak..huhuu terima kasih!


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